Promoting the rain

When I come back to my blog now I feel like I'm forgetting it completely.  I thought about it tonight though and I realize that most days I'm just so tired that I completely forget about it.  Here are a few new things that have been happening recently.

The weather has been ridiculous.  It's been raining for what seems like forever along with the wind blowing a lot harder then normal.  This is all due to a storm that was coming to the coast and pushing all that nasty stuff our way.  Looking at the forecast now, it looks like everything will be going back to normal here now with not as much rain and just an overcast for a few more days this week.  

Because of all this weather we have had a ton of mushrooms growing in our yard and not just small ones littered around.  There have been some pretty huge ones massing at the front of the lawn near the street.  Thankfully our dogs, along with other neighborhood animals, have been ignoring them.  I'd hate to see one of them get poisoned from trying to eat one.

In work related news it looks like they would like to promote me to a department manager which I have been reluctant about for a while now.  For one, I'm not sure how great I'd be in a manager position to begin with.  I'm way to nice and don't deal with confrontation to well.  On the other hand I'm very organized and committed to my work so I'd be able to straighten out any department pretty quickly.  It would definitely be nice to have the extra money but my options aren't the greatest right now.  They have an opening for the Hardware department, which I know nothing about, and also the Deli will be coming open, which I know more then I'd like to about.  Do I really want to deal with the stress of the Deli or should I just wait and see what else comes up?  

Regardless of what I'd like to do I won't be able to do much until I retake the manager test.  I've been locked out of it for several months after I failed it the last time.  It's probably the worse thing I could have done as many opportunities have passed me by because of it.  So by the end of the month I should be able to retake it and then be able to look into something in management.  I don't know if these departments will stay open this long, and knowing my luck they wont, but honestly that's ok.  I'm not sure I'd be cut out for either of them anyway mainly because like I said before, I know nothing about Hardware and the Deli is so stressful right now.  Lots of call ins and having to deal with people not getting along with each other that is just a massive pile of drama that I'm not sure I'm fully capable of dealing with.  I hated it while I was over there but trying to manage it?  That's a crazy ball of nonsense.

In regards to my book I've still be on a break from it.  The first part of editing is going to require me to basically rewrite the entire thing which will take almost twice as long as it did to write it in the first place.  It's becoming a very daunting task and I feel like my mind is pushing me out of it again.  I've come so far at this point that I would hate to give up so I'm going to keep going.  I worked on it almost non stop for several months and I really just need some more time before I delve back into it again.

I think that's all I have for now so as usual, thanks everyone for reading and I hope to see you all again in the future.

The smell of Autumn

I was walking my dogs the other night and it happened to be a much cooler night then normal.  With the crisp cool air came a flood of smells of the autumn season that immediately ignited my nostalgia.  I couldn't help but remember a time when I was much younger and didn't have as much weighing on my shoulders on a daily basis.  The worst thing I had to worry about was homework, chores and whether or not a girl could possibly like me.  Riding my bike and being able to go anywhere I wanted to.  Hanging out with friends and never getting tired of playing and replaying every game I owned.  How drastically things can change in just a few short years.

My blog almost got left behind again as I began to procrastinate writing in it.  I felt the urge pretty hard due to fatigue and just plain boredom.  Most of the time I live a pretty boring life and don't have much to report.  My daily routine usually involves waking up, walking the dogs, eating breakfast, getting ready for work, going to work, coming home, eating dinner, walking the dogs and messing around on the internet until I'm to tired to go on.  My days off usually entail doing things around the house like laundry, vacuuming, sweeping, dishes, mowing the lawn and whatever else needs done.  If I had a better income I would probably go out more and see what the world has to offer but because we live in a state of constant poverty, I'm unable to do the kind of stuff I used to do with friends.

So since my last post we went to the fair and it was pretty awesome.  Walking around that place and taking in all the sights and sounds was something I hadn't done in a very, very long time.  Not since I lived in Florida the first time I believe.  Although I didn't get to play much of any games, we did get to go on plenty of rides and ate some of the carny food.  All in all, was a great time for sure.

Yesterday we also took a short trip out of town to go eat someplace different and shop a little.  I felt like we definitely needed a new place to roam around and that was just the thing to do it.  The only bad part again was that since I don't have a lot of money we couldn't really buy that much which is frustrating.

I've also been thinking of ideas for games lately since I've been on a break from writing my book.  I keep thinking of working on something that I've already written out or redoing my game from the final project of my college degree.  The more I think of it, the more I want to remake that game.  I feel like I had a good idea and a great concept but it just ended up being some pretty bland and only mildly interesting to play.  That was probably more due to the fact that I was on such a tight deadline and that I was still learning the engine I was working with.  That engine was something I was familiar with but had never actually finished a game in.  It was also something I didn't learn about in college which probably made it that much stranger to my teacher and fellow students.  The fact that I wasn't comfortable using Flash or anything else we had "learned" since we didn't actually learn much on those things was hard for me to deal with.  Even so, it ended up getting me a perfect grade and probably sealing the deal on graduating with highest honors.

Thinking about times like that really shows me how much I'm wasting my potential by just sitting here everyday and not working on something.  I should be making a game, pushing out a book, or doing something with my mind.  I'm not even sure that if I was in a better situation that I'd still be able to focus on doing something like that.  It's hard to concentrate and sit down to work on a project when you're always tired, stressed out, depressed and frustrated at things.  I feel like it's going to click soon though.  I'm reaching a breaking point where I just throw everything out the window and finally break down.  I just need to push myself enough into it.

This all went on much longer then I anticipated but it's a good thing.  Writing has helped me to get some things out that I normally wouldn't be able to.  Thanks to everyone who has been reading, whoever you are, and I hope to see you again in the future.

Time to buy a chicken

It's been a week hasn't it?  I've been preoccupying myself with other things besides writing on here but I decided today was a good day to put a little something down.  Here's the low down for the week.

Eggs are expensive.  I don't know if they are where you live but here they have been consistently costly.  A dozen costing almost three dollars and an eighteen pack costing almost four dollars.  The prices have been fluctuating but it's enough to both people and frustrate them that they have to pay so much to buy eggs.  While stocking eggs, almost every person who walks up will say "I'm going to have to get a chicken if prices don't go down."  In reality I don't know how much it would cost to keep a chicken but I'm sure you would need more then one and a rooster to go with it not to mention a place to hold them and keep them safe, warm and fed.  It sounds expensive to me, much more then just buying eggs at a store.  That is of course if you have the room for it and the money then by all means go for it.

To me it's just one of those things people take for granted.  It's a convenience that we are afforded every day to be able to go to the store and just pick whatever we want to eat depending on our finances.  What would happen if chickens went extinct?  What kind of eggs would we eat then?  What about cows?  Turkeys?  It's an interesting thing to think about as most people have never had to live in a time where things like this weren't readily available and mass produced.  I actually hope it never gets to that point though.

Later today I'll be heading to the fair.  I haven't been to a fair in a very long time to the point that I can't remember the last time I've been to one.  It's going to be an awesome experience and I can't wait.  The only thing I wish I had was more money so I could spend more on games and to be able to take in all that I can during the fair.  If anything I'll just get on as many rides as I can to make it worth it.  I'm usually pretty good at games anyway so I'll just have to pick the right ones and win as much as I can.

So hows my book going?  I had another moment of creativity when writing out character backgrounds and came up with a group of characters that I didn't even think to write out.  The characters were part of the school at the beginning and are sort of rivals to the main character and her group.  When I started coming up with their names and backgrounds it just hit me out of no where.  This in turn led me to write a bunch of other stuff for the history of elves in my world which then led me to start writing about some more of the main characters in the world.  This all started from me writing out a new outline for my book to encompass what I had actually written in the first draft.  I didn't even get out of the first couple of chapters and I branched out to writing background information for other characters.  It was insane!  I still haven't even gotten around to editing the first draft but at least this way I'll have a better idea of the characters in my world.

That's a good enough update for me.  Nothing else interesting to report right now but as always thank you everyone for reading this, whoever you are, and I hope to see you in the future.

Wal-mart: Your one stop mom and pop shop

After seven days of work, I finally made it to my days off.  My first day off went well, did some much needed resting and not much else.  Tomorrow will be much busier with having to grocery shop and having to run errands around town since I get paid.  So what news is there to talk about?

For one, my job has decided to start cutting hours again.  I've gone a pretty long while without having my hours drastically cut besides the usual time during a holiday where they don't want to pay us for an extra day of work so they end up giving people a third day off during the week.  This time though they have started cutting hours during a non holiday week.  It makes no sense why they need to cut hours.  They are probably the largest retail company in the world and make billions a year and yet they act like they are hurting for money constantly to the point the have to make sure that no one is getting over time and that they can't afford to pay us extra for a holiday.  Make any excuse you want but as a company that makes as much as they do, they should be able to afford paying their employees more then they do and provide better for them.

Speaking of the pay, that is another stupid thing they have decided to do recently.  Their decision to raise employee wages has turned out to be another crock of shit.  So they raise everyone who is under nine dollars up to nine dollars and anyone over that gets a two percent raise.  Next year they are supposed to bring everyone up to ten dollars an hour.  That means that since I've been there for three years, not counting the other five or six years of experience I have in retail, I'll be making as much as someone they just hired after six months.  That is just plan stupid and makes me madder then it should.  I feel bad for the people who have capped wages there at this point.  They didn't get any kind of raise and even people who aren't at cap but are making much more then the minimum didn't get anything.  Department managers at my store have it worse.  They were supposed to go up to thirteen and fifteen dollars an hour depending on their area of work and how many employees they might have but instead they are going up to eleven and thirteen dollars an hour.  I guess the notice they gave us about the changes to pay and scheduling was more of a guideline then an actual set in stone thing.

The hard part is over

Third day into my seven days of work and the hard part is at least over with.  I made it through my closing shift and then my opening shift and after only a few hours of being at home I promptly went to sleep.  My body was just done with it.  If you have ever worked retail, then you may have had to work this type of shift before.  You have to close your area which usually entails staying until ten, eleven, or twelve at night and then you have to come in early the next day, usually at six, seven or eight in the morning.  It gives you very little time to sleep and you might think, oh I can just get to sleep when I get home.  If you can do that, then you are some kind of inhuman robot.  Most people can't just fall asleep right after work and have to wind down for at least a couple hours before they are tired enough.  I ended up getting maybe five hours of sleep and it sucked.  Thankfully it's over now for at least another two weeks.

In other, much better news, I finished off the last few lines of my book.  I now have a first draft of some written fiction.  For now, I'm taking a slight break from it and just working on character background information, trying to make my characters more likable and making it easier for people to relate to them.  It's a great first step to finishing this story but I feel like it's going to take a much longer time editing the draft and making it more readable.  Right now it's a pretty terrible mess of different perspectives and very little description of any kind of environment or places in the world.  It's really just a series of conversations between the characters which I guess is a good thing but it doesn't help me try to figure out how to actually write good descriptions.  I'm terrible at describing things very well and don't know how to use words that will convey what you should be looking at in the story.  It's just something I'll have to learn I suppose.

A weird thing also happened the other day.  I have a Youtube channel I created to try and do Let's Play videos on and I haven't really done anything with it for over a year now.  I was going to try and start updating it at the beginning of this year but I never got around to it for a couple of reasons.  A few days ago though I ended up getting a view on my Facebook page for it.  It was really weird and made me think about starting it up again.  When I started it before, I had great ideas and wanted to just push content out everyday, which for most people would be much easier then what I had anticipated.  My time is very limited when I'm at home though so I don't have the kind of time to record that much.  My microphone is also absolute garbage.  In many of my videos, you can hear my breathing and it's very grating to hear when your trying to watch someone play a game.  If I could get a better microphone that isn't a headset, I may try and make videos again but for now I'm stuck with the channel as is.

Not much else going on at the moment so I'll leave it at that.  Thanks again for reading, whoever you few people are and if you are actual people.  Sometimes I wonder if it's just robots that scour the internet that are viewing my blog.  If not then I hope the people out there are enjoying reading what I have to say.  I hope to see you all again in the future.

A Long Week

It's my last day off and I'm dreading work again.  It's going to be a long seven days before I get another day off.  My schedule is up and down too so I'll be working nights and days up until next Wednesday.  I always hate weeks like this but since they screwed my schedule up to  have me in the Deli for those two weeks, it messed everything up in my normal department.  It should hopefully be straightened out after this week though.

My book is literally on it's last sentence. I need to just finish the end scene and I can begin the editing process.  I feel like I'll be waiting on that now since I've got more character development to work on.  I've gotten so many great ideas for my characters since I've started writing this that I've got to rewrite their backgrounds a bit.  Not they will be more like actual people with emotions instead of just blank slates.  My main character still is an issue though.  I feel like she is not quite where I want her to be but I hope to fix that once I get the others figured out.  For now she is the glue that keeps the group together for the most part.  I feel she needs more though.

My time of has been pretty uneventful.  I didn't accomplish much with the time I had and just spent a lot of time being lazy and unproductive.  It kind of sucked actually.  When I'm at work I always have good intentions of getting motivated and wanting to come home and work on something but then I completely bomb out when I'm here.  I get distracted by to many other things that are going on.  How can I stop doing that?  I feel like I need to set some time out of my days to work on projects while I'm at home instead of doing nothing.  It's a matter of finding my discipline to actually force myself into working on something instead of doing nothing that keeps me from taking that next step.  I think the first step will be getting out of the rut I'm in.  Right now it's a pretty deep hole and I don't think it will get better until I make some quality of life improvements.  

Pretty short post for today as I didn't really have much to talk about besides my book and even that was pretty limited.  If anyone wants to hear more details on it, feel free to comment and I'll post some more info on characters and plot.

Thanks again for checking out my blog and I hope to see you in the future. 

Finishing things

A fitting title I suppose for whats happened the past few days.  Starting with today though, tonight was my last scheduled day in the Deli at work.  It was also a terribly annoying and frustrating day from hell but I managed to make my way through it none the less.  

My first draft is almost, kinda, sorta finished.  Just another few days and it should be done.  I've decided on a new plot development to move it along into the next book and give the girls a task to focus on.  It should be interesting for sure and will help me start up the second book when the time comes.  I have some ideas for the second and third book but nothing concrete yet.  There isn't enough to make an actual good story out of it just fun ideas that I can't wait to play around with.  Finishing the first book will be exciting and I can't wait to hold an actual copy of it in my hands.  

I also finished a game today.  I have a hard time playing different games other then World of Warcraft right now and I'm not sure so I see this as quite an achievement.  The story was just compelling enough to keep me playing it.  It's called Master Reboot for anyone that wants to check it out and you can find it on Steam or possibly other platforms.  I had originally bought the game about a year ago and just recently decided to pick it up again.  The graphics had turned me off from it but once I realized that it's part of the aesthetic and once I figured out what the story was about, it was much easier for me to play.  I actually didn't think I would finish it because I got to the last level last night and had to stop so I could go to sleep.  Usually when I stop at a last level I don't bother to finish it but this time I decided that I just had to.  I had to see the conclusion to the story and get some closure.  I'm really glad I did.

I'm not sure how long it's been going on but if I had to guess it's been about eight years that I've had this problem.  This problem of not only being unable to finish things but to even start things.  I will buy games on Steam and then either start them and play for a few hours or never touch them at all.  These games are ones that I am legitimately interested in too and for some reason I can't even pick them up and play them.  It's not just games though but projects I want to start on such as my book.  It has taken me years to even get to the point where I am now in writing my book which I blame mostly on how many revisions in the story I had to do before I was satisfied with it.

The big things I've wanted to do though involve making another game.  I haven't made one since college and for some reason I haven't been able to find the drive and discipline to actually sit down and work on it.  Instead of actually trying to work on something, anything at this point, I end up bringing myself down by thinking things like, no one will play this, it won't be as good as other things I see out there.  Really I should just make something and deal with it later.  I shouldn't take what people say about it so critically and just use that information to help improve on the next project.

Of course all of this could have to do with depression and being sad about certain aspects of my life.  I'm sure it has a big part to do with the motivation part in the least.

That's it for now.  Thanks again everyone for reading and I hope to see you again in the future.

The future, one day at a time

Some days I actually get a chance to talk to people about what I'd like to be doing in the future and to be honest the only real thing I know for sure about it is that I don't want to be working at Wal-mart.  It's not the kind of environment I enjoy being in at all.  People who slack off are rewarded while the people who work hard every day and push their limits are used to their breaking point and beyond.  I'm one of those people who is used for all I'm worth and never given an opportunity to move up or better myself.  This is why I don't want to be there anymore.

Now you might say, "but you can find this in any workplace", which is true.  Every work place is like a version of high school that you hate and wish you didn't have to be apart.  Everyone has their own groups that they hang out with and people they socialize with.  Drama is always rampant because you have nothing better to do then talk about your co workers and their lives.  Other then work that is.

Most people I work with will know me as a hard worker.  I do my job and then I go home because I don't want to be a part of the nonsense that everyone else is dragging around.  I don't have time for it.  Yet I tend to get caught up in it myself mainly because it involves people that are causing me more work then I already don't like doing.  I just don't want to deal with it.

So why am I talking about this?  Because I know somewhere out there, there are companies that you can work for that have an actual good environment to work in.  There is very little drama and the people you will meet and socialize with will share similar interests and goals as you.  I know they are out there because I hear people talk about them all the time and how they love their job and the work they do.  Now, this could be because they don't actually tell you about all the stupid things that go on behind the scenes but I like to believe that there are actual places like these in the world.

Again, why am I talking about this?  It's the kind of thing I think about on a constant basis.  Some days I get thoughts in my head and dwell on them for quite some time until something breaks me out of the stupor and brings me back to reality.  The reality that I'm working in a dead end job with almost no hope of getting out.  The reality that most people I work with are content with the choice they made in life and just gave up at some point.  I don't want to be one of those people so I continue to work on small goals I've made for myself to hopefully get me somewhere someday.

Reverse Sleep

Trying to redo your sleep schedule is frustrating.  I worked one to ten on Thursday, then was off Friday and then had to go into work today at eight a.m.  I never do well when it comes to getting to bed early so I can try and get some sleep.  I usually end up getting like five hours of sleep.  Now though, I feel tired as all hell and I should be able to get on the right schedule for tomorrow.  Then tomorrow, after work, I'll have to stay up later so I can redo my sleep schedule again for a one to ten work schedule.  This is one of the many perils of working in retail.  If you work in an area that requires two different shift types, expect to have to do this a lot.  Not only that, expect to work a closing shift like one to ten and then have to come in the next morning and work seven to four.  It's the worst thing to ever happen to anyone ever.

Work was pretty uneventful today.  Much easier working during the day then the evening.  There is a lot less stress to get things done during the day and not as much to worry about either.  After another week or so I'll have to worry about even less.  Honestly I'd rather just not be working in retail anymore and move on to something better.  Sadly there isn't much to get into around here so I'm stuck here for now.  Unless this thing with Google works out.

I also worked on the book some more today.  This was the first day that I wrote an edit into the story saying "Fuck this plot, let's do this instead" and wrote something different.  I like this version much better and I managed to get a ton of pages written because of it.  Almost there!

Nothing else to say here today.  Maybe tomorrow I'll have more.  For now there is only sleep.  Thanks again for reading this short post and I hope to see you again in the future.

It's been a few days

At first I thought I might have forgotten to write some posts but it wasn't so much forgetting as it was finding the time.  Then as the days kept going by I realized that I really didn't have much time to actually sit and type something.  But now that my days are starting to even out more and I'm not completely stressed out from work, I can finally work on this again.  So here we go.

On my day off Tuesday I didn't do much of anything.  I actually felt terrible for not doing much more work around the house but I was just exhausted from work still and wanted a day to relax.

Wednesday I went back into the Deli and surprisingly it was much smoother then the past week of working over there.  It could have been the people I worked with or that we had at least five people there instead of four.  It runs a lot better when people are working and there is an actual crew there to keep things running.  My night ended by having to work in Frozen and Dairy, facing Frozen out and stocking milk.  I definitely don't get paid enough for this job.

Five Days

I have finally passed the five day mark.  After today, I will have much less contact with the Deli then when I started covering for them.  The next few weeks I only have a couple days here and there and then I'll be able to head back to my normal place.  It sounds terrible when I say things like this and to those who may read this that I work with in the Deli, I mean nothing against you.  The work there is far to difficult in ways that I don't like dealing with.  It mainly deals with the fact that Wal-mart doesn't know how to hire a proper crew of people to run a place.  Instead they would rather work their hardest workers to the bone and stretch them to their limits while running with the most minimalist group they can find.  Even after getting the new people hired it won't be enough because they won't give them the hours that they need to run the place properly.

I'm to tired for this.

So very tired

This post is much later then I wanted it to be due to an unfortunate series of events.  I didn't have as much time last night then I thought I would before the power just cut off on us for a good two and a half hours.  I then tried to go to bed when it cut off but I had a horrible time staying asleep.  When the power did come back on I got up and turned off all the stuff that came on from earlier and then immediately passed out.  Just when I thought I might have gotten a bit of good sleep, my neighbors annoying car alarm went off and woke me up which caused me to stay awake for the last couple hours of sleep because I couldn't get comfortable again.  It was a terrible morning for sure.

Going to work, I knew it was going to be a bad day because I was pretty drowsy still and I was not disappointed.  Not an hour or so after being there, we got slammed pretty hard and I had to deal with one hell of a lunch rush.  That rush lasted for most of the day and well into dinner rush.  By the end of the night I was exhausted and just wanted to go home.  I was supposed to do a half day in the Deli and then go to Frozen/Dairy but instead they made me stay in the Deli to cover everyone's lunches.  By the end of it I would only have an hour left to spend in Frozen/Dairy so there was no point in going over there. I'm pretty sure management never thinks of it that way though.

I didn't forget!

Anyone who has followed the first couple blog posts may have wondered where this one was.  I didn't forget it and realized I had not written it last night after work right when I had gotten into bed.  I decided it could wait for the morning since I was just so tired last night from work.  This might be shorter then normal due to my morning time constraints but at least there will be something.

Work was tiring.  I forgot how terribly hectic and crowded it can get working in the Deli when there are only two people working during a lunch or dinner rush.  You literally have no time to think at all and unlike other fast food places, you don't have anyone else to help you with things.  So I ended up having to run back and forth from serving food, making food and slicing meat/cheese while the other person filled in wherever I wasn't at.  Surprisingly by the end of the night it had died off significantly which was really strange for a Friday night.  That was also partly a bad thing because with not as much to do my body was starting to catch up with itself and I became tired pretty quickly. 

The drama of small work spaces

I had my first actual full day of work back in the Deli today.  I stressed a lot over going back the past few days, I mean more then I should have, but it actually turned out to be just the same old thing with very minor changes.  One of the things that was still very relevant and still very active was the drama that is created by small groups of people confined in a small work environment.  There is really no reason to have so much drama between so few people that should all be getting along to complete all the work necessary to help everyone get home with very little stress.  But it happens.  Everyday.  And it sucks.  It's mostly due to the fact that some people just don't want to work or people want to lay out the ground rules for what they should be doing and what others should be doing.  If we all did our fair share of work, we could all go home feeling more content but sadly, most days, everyone feels like they are doing far more work then their coworkers.

The big issue that occurred tonight for me that didn't involve the Deli was when my management team was telling me that I needed to check on the stock of milk and eggs for the night.  This is a problem since I was fully enveloped in the work of the Deli and would not be able to find time to go over and stock eggs and milk.  By the time I did get over there to check on it all, the stock of eggs and milk was so bad off that it would have taken me at least another hour and a half to finish it.  I only had thirty minutes left in my night and still hadn't taken a break.  So what did I do?  I half assed stocked milk and said screw eggs because I wasn't going to have time to deal with that mess.  

Days off and preparing for the work week

My first official post of the blog!  I don't include the other post because it was more of a description then anything else.  It's also my day off so I feel the need to catch up on the past two days events.

I always enjoy my days off from work, even though I don't have much to do besides house work and winding down from a stressful week of dealing with customers and doing more than I'm required to keep the place running.  Today, though, I did a few things.  My main goal for today was to inspect under our house for any issues that may be causing us discomfort.  The main thing being that our heat pump hasn't been working properly so I wanted to see if there were any ducts that were broken or damaged.  Sure enough, when I opened the crawlspace door I felt a rush of cool air coming out.

A Fresh Start

As the title infers, I'm giving my blog a fresh start.  I deleted all my previous content and I'm now starting from scratch.  Why did I do this?  I just want to push out the old and start with some new ideas.  I feel like I have a great medium here that I can express myself on by writing down my thoughts and ideas that will hopefully provide some motivation to continue working on everything I want to accomplish. Here's how things will work.

I'm going to start by creating one post a day, at the end of each day, so I can record my thoughts and everything that happened during the day.  This way I don't lose anything I've thought of during the day and I can hopefully provide some much needed motivation to get myself writing more and working on projects that I want to focus on.  By talking about my thoughts and getting everything out in the open, I hope to achieve that goal.  Just writing this post is a huge step for me.

Things I'll be talking about will include but aren't limited to:

•  My work day and/or days off and anything interesting that happened.  I currently work in retail at Wal-mart so expect some retail stories that mostly involve the work I do and customers I interact with.
• My book that I'm writing.  It's a trilogy called Sin Harvest and as of this post I'm close to finishing my first draft.
• Game ideas and projects I may try to start.  Been having a hard time with this one mainly because coming up with ideas is easy for me but actually implementing them is something entirely different.
• My anxiety and how I deal with it on a daily basis.  I was going to write up an explanation on this for people to read but because of the way my mind thinks and works, I have been unable to cope with actually making it.  Instead, I'm going to talk about it when I feel it's necessary and in small chunks so I can slowly bring it out to people.

Today is the first day of making a commitment to myself.  To try and find the discipline and determination to create something that I've always wanted to make.  Thank you for reading this and I hope to see you in all my future posts.